Hearing the words "you have a dis-ease" (of whatever kind) is never an easy pill to swallow. Hearing that your body has failed you or that you're not able to live a life like a "normal" human being changes everything about what you thought you knew, how you live your day to day life and what you expect for your future. At least it did for me. Chronic pain, denial, anger, fear, depression, control are just a few of the versions of myself that I’ve had to live through. That is, until I decided I no longer wanted to be or feel any of those things. I wanted to be free and soar like a Phoenix.
The Phoenix obtains a new life by arising from the ashes of its predecessor, so for me I decided to rise from the ashes of my diagnosis and step into a new version of myself. One that uses her physical pain as her spiritual fuel to fight and inspire and understand the lesson so that I am able to share it with the rest of the world. Don't get me wrong, I have my bad days where I'm in bed most of the day or I fall sick for days at a time but I allow myself the time I need to heal, rest and to feel what I need to feel. Then I get up and push on because I know my victory is found in the moments in between. I have good days, bad days and my favourite...the moments in between.
So just like the Phoenix I've shed the old versions of who I was and when I glance down over the ashes and soar into the skies I remember what it's like to be free before this life, before this disease.
]]>It’s finally happening! MY website has gone live!!! I'm sure most people in this day and age would think “ok and?What's the big deal?” haha. Well if you know me, you know I'm not tech savvy and yes I've had an amazing support system along the way. However, saying we've run into some road blocks is an understatement!
Three years ago, when I started this journey of self healing and stepping into my purpose and finding my heartbeat seemed like a distant goal. Heck, I have felt that way up until a few months ago. I had to let go of the fear of things I could not control and soon I began to realize that it’s not about me, it's about my message. It’s about my experience and my WHY. Why am I doing what I do and how it will impact others going through the same things?
So here I am. One step closer to stepping into my light. One step closer to helping you do the same. One step closer to allowing myself to be vulnerable enough to share my truth.
It's easy to share the good, and all the accomplishments, but to me, what’s most inspiring is sharing the raw truths and struggles of how I got to where I am. The here and the now. So buckle up because I am just getting started!
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